Spell-tainted blood

Ohh the stupidity of people...
How I wish I could just get rid of them and spawn a new set of humans with thoughts as dark as mine. Really, when they decided to correct me, they should at least look at themselves in the mirror and see who they really are.

I've embraced my dark soul and walk along the path of the abyss. I have no regrets. No matter what my useless of a mother said, having to pray to God and all those nonsense, is just way too low for me. Can't she see..? I thrive in the darkness, my blood is no longer pure like it was years ago and spells and charms are my closest friend.

I may not be in an occult, but a little 'friend' of mine who's been staying by my side all these years is enough, and I have found some nice websites for spells and curses.

Asphyxiate spell;

Sylphs of air I conjure thee,

Enter that person and make his air leave him,

Now!

Crescent Curse spell;

Crescent moon, crescent light,

I call upon you to come and smite.

Deliver a crushing blow to my enemies and foes,

Do not kill but do not slow show no compassion for these fores.

For those who stole from you;

(thief's name),

You've taken something so dear to me,

So for that, it's cursed you'll be.

By the earth of north, fires of south, winds of east and waters of west,

Unlucky you are compared to the rest.

So by the power of me and by the power of three,

You are cursed, so mote it be!

Stupidity spell;

Power of dark, power of light,

I summon thee on this very night.

I summon thee to overwhelm (name) with stupidity.

Make him/her trip, make him/her drool,

All because he/she has been so cruel.

Make him/her never think again,

As if his/her mind has never been.

Make every object his/her obstruction.

So mote it be.

So basically I will try these out, but since I don't have the time or resources right now, I'll just have to wait. Although there are some spells which are easy to do and doesn't require anything, just hate, anger and dark energy like the asphyxiate spell. You just have to focus your energy and point your index finger to the person you're casting to.

These spells will help me get what I want..

And nothing will stop me in my way..

Slender

Suuuree...trick the girl who's supposed to have an exam in a couple of days to play Slender why don't ya? It's super fun and could make your heart explode...

Why must this daring side of me accept such stupid challenge?! This is the Slenderman we're talking about! Faceless, tall, full of tentacles Slenderman who'd probably tentacle rape me if I'm not careful!
Suddenly that doesn't sound so bad...

But still, SLENDERMAN! Stupid me had to download the freaking game and played it at night, nonetheless! And that bitch I call my mother dared to scare the crap outta me juuust as I was about to get away from these weird footsteps in the game. 9GAG and internet..not a good combination on my challenging streak.

Great..now I can't sleep..

School Stupidity

Yeah..sorry I haven't updated in a while, things got pretty nasty around here. From homework to games to studying, everything. And to top it off, they're all BULLSHIT!! There's only so much a girl can do before stress snaps her in half. And this girl, is at the point of breaking.

My math teacher is pushing me to do exercises I find stupid, how dare she tells me what I should do with my life and all those shits, I don't give no flying fuck! I know what I want to do with my life so don't you dare try and give me some fucking lectures. I ain't working that way. Just because her son is already an A+ genius, doesn't mean she can go around willy-nilly telling ME what to do. Geezuz..teacher nowadays.

And then there's additional maths which is just plain FUCKTARD. Maths, add maths, what's the diff?! They're still numbers and equations and all those moves, makes it no less maths in any way or form. Bio=chemistry=physics=add maths=MATHS, everything is the mother. Fucking. SAME. The only problem with add maths, is that it's long, tedious and just...dumb..I don't even have a swear for this anymore..

Chemistry, physics and bio..the teachers are all NUTS. I think after teaching my school's students for years, the neurones in their brains finally fried, leaving that trail of smoke coming out of their ears. Hell, even WE feel the pressure for our exams, but we still take it easy and steady.

I mean, look at me! I'm having my language paper in two days yet I can still play games and goofing off!
I'm not the genius or the smart type, I'm just the type who doesn't go to sleep at night if she wants to. That's right bitches! I stayed up until 5am practicing my add maths!! And still the motherfucker gave me a freaking 9/100!!

FUCK IT ALL!!!!

See what I mean? School, teachers, studying. Is there anything in life that's worth it for these three? I know our futures rely on exams and stuff..but come on! Malaysian educational system SUCKS big time! UPSR? PMR? SPM?! Are they seriously thinking that just by all those exams, we'd be successful in life?

I laugh at this.

*sigh* Might as well cram for that stupid language paper or else both my parents AND my teacher would go after my butt.

Sports and spells

*YAWN~~*

Man I'm beat...
Running around the field for a few laps sure hurts the thighs, not to mention the energy being used. And all these is because I'm getting ready for the school's Sports Day tomorrow. My handsome, charming, yet so stupid team leader signed my name for a 100m sprint, 4x100m and long jump.

Which is why I'm putting my time, and energy to do laps around the field and practicing for the long jump. Seriously, if it wasn't because it's my last year of highschool, I won't even bother doing all these stuff. I'd prefer to just stay at home and procrastinate by reading manga or writing my horror-themed fanfics or things like that.
Too bad I can't do those for the time being..what a pain.

And his twin brother, Adam, is almost as bad as he is, good thing he's much more tolerable. But really..those two can put off any artist/sportswoman when it comes to Sports Day. Why must I WADDLE LIKE A DUCK for the practice??

*sigh*...

The last time I checked, there is NO waddling while practicing, even the teacher was smiling like an idiot. Well, I got so mad knowing I was fooled, I went up to the twins and gave them a bone-shilling stare. They avoided me the whole day like I'm a curse-bringer.

Considering I have been learning black magic these past few days, I guess you can call me that.

A witch, a wizard, a demon, whatever.

All I know, is that I want to be just like this guy, maybe even get a mark like that on my hand, or some other part of my body. The mark of evil, a pentagram where the star is upside down..



Spells..especially forbidden spells are starting to interest me. Ever since I've used that pendulum, all I can think about is magic and its amazing uses. There's this someone I hate so badly, he took my best friend, who's this beautiful kind-hearted soul away from me.

AND THAT GUY IS A DRUNKARD!!

I don't know what my best friend see in him. He's a jerk and a selfish brat! Not to mention he only pretends to look good in front of her to make her fall for him. I can see he's done something to her and the rest of my friends.

Because I'm not affected by him or by his so-called easy going and funny attitude.

I've learnt some Japanese-styled seals and spells and guard myself, I think that's the whole reason his stupid looks and 'funny' personality doesn't get to me. In fact, it made my blood boil with uncontained rage. So now I'm learning some more Japanese black magic to seal around that boy's soul.

And probably not just Japanese-style magic, maybe some cult magic would do me good too, I want that boy to suffer for the rest of his life. My friends see them both together as cute, I find it repulsive. And to my dearest best friend...

I'm sorry...

I have to put a seal around your heart as well to make sure that you don't like that kind of boy for the rest of your life. You deserve a better guy than that piece of shit.

Blood

I just got back my results, well, my report card today and I am NOT a happy camper. C'mon...gimme a break, it's not like I'm gonna fail forever unless you useless old hags stop nagging me in order for me to do my job nicely. I may not be a doctor (yet) but I can also work in literature, I love english and I love writing, and you people are robbing that away from me.

Changing topic, that doesn't matter to me knowing it'll be my LAST parent-teacher meeting, I found something quite interesting in the internet image search, check it out;

Whoever made this, is a genius!! It's time for brats to know we can just get rid of their asses if we were to know that they'd grow up to be brats. I know I would. But then again it'll cause so much stress on my womb, not to mention the multiple sex times I'd have and the pain I'd receive later on.

I'll just go to the hospital and ask for dead fetuses, simple as that. People nowadays only throw those dead fetuses in trashcans anyway, so it's practically worthless. I'll just gather them and do whatever this thing tells me to do.

Blood...pain..suffering..screaming, all those fuel me to the very core. It's insane how bloodthirsty I've become over the past few years, my mother has no control over my lust anymore. There are times when I want her blood just so I could feel satisfaction over it. But I know it won't be enough.

Once I have hers, I'll want dad's, then I want the babies' blood..

Blood...

The forbidden wine..

The sinful liquid

No more...

Go to hell and die you two pieces of useless fuckers.

You do not get into my life unless you have good business, and nosing around to find my exam result is just no business at all. You think just because you're my parents, I'll give and show you whatever you want me to give or show you? HAH! If I show you my tits, would you still want to look?

Those two insufferable fools I call my parents continues to make my life as miserable as hell. I'm not a genius, I have a lot of things on my mind, I have things from school AND not from school to do, give me a break man! As much as I want to excell in my life, you people nosing in isn't helping one bit.

Not to mentioned I lost two choir competitions thanks to those buffoons I call choir members. Stupid juniors just know how to fool around, doesn't take anything seriously for the entire half a year. I don't think I'll be able to join the third competition, die on your own. Tch...
The more I think of the competition, the more pissed I become, and more fuel's been added now that my parents are purposely digging their own graves in my hands.

No more...

No more...

All these times of being a little girl trying to please her parents; like a slave begging for a pinch of love from its master.

NO MORE.

No more will I continue to live like how I'm living now. No more of getting in touch with my child-self and feigning innocence when I did something wrong. No more of this insanity where my life is on the leash my parents set for me its length.

I'm gonna stand up on my own, I'm gonna face the world and the problems without flinching, I'm gonna show life that it can't control me. I live my own life, my soul belongs to me, I decide my future and no one from my family besides me will point where I should go.

If I ever got lost, I'll find my own way back, if I fall down and hurt myself, I'll just get back up and dust away the pain, if my life suddenly become pitch black, I'll create my own fire with whatever I have on me.

I'm not gonna depend on anyone, solely relying on myself only.

And those bitches/bastards who think they can order me around; whether it be my parents or not, I'm not gonna have an ounce of respect for them. Let them deal with the stupidity of their lives on their own.

Dowsing

Fuck it all..school will start tomorrow and I'm still in my holiday mood. I don't think I can sleep early and wake up early just to go to that hell hole. I seriously don't want to get my marks, which I know would be horrible because I never studied in the first place.

I told my mum I did study, huge ass lie that was. But meh, I couldn't give a fuck about it. Who'd want to study when there's shitload of homework to do? But then again I never did finish any of my homeworks, except english because the teacher is pure DEMON!
Good thing I'm one of her top students, the other students practically fear me now.

Anyways, like I said, I couldn't give a fuck about school. I just want to laze my ass at home and sleep until noon. Not to mention I have a crazy damn fucking stupid exam by the end of this year that I have to cram for. I really don't feel like it, it sucks shit more than my parents. The government is stupid, that's what it is.

By the way, last night I took the liberty to actually learn how to dowse. I calmed my mind, take out my necklace that has a teardrop crystal on it and start to swing it back and forth asking simple yes/no questions. After that, I froze my hand and let the crystal swing according to my question. I 'programmed' the crystal to continue swinging if it's a yes and slow down or stop if it's a no.

Surprisingly, that's just what it did. I ask some simple questions like 'is it Monday?', it slows down immediately. And then I asked if 12X12 is 144? The crystal continues to swing for quite some time. And then to experiment, I simply swing the crystal without calming my mind and without a question, the crystal swung for a short time, slows down and stops.

During my previous 'no' question, the crystal slows down IMMEDIATELY and during my 'yes' question, the crystal continues to swing like air friction is nothing to it. This just goes to show that I've started level 1 of my dowsing techniques.

My crystal necklace looks a bit like this only the opposite way since it's a teardrop shape;

Dowsing pendulum

I'm now gonna move to a higher level dowsing, to find someone or something on the map which requires more concentration. And then I'm gonna open my chakra points and improve my battle techniques, maybe even help me...cheat a little in exam.

They say once the aura nodes are open, ANYTHING is possible, so I'm gonna train myself. Finally, I'll be dowsing without a dowsing pendulum/crystal, I'll simply rely on my body to help me, there are some things I need to find and do after all..