Blood

I just got back my results, well, my report card today and I am NOT a happy camper. C'mon...gimme a break, it's not like I'm gonna fail forever unless you useless old hags stop nagging me in order for me to do my job nicely. I may not be a doctor (yet) but I can also work in literature, I love english and I love writing, and you people are robbing that away from me.

Changing topic, that doesn't matter to me knowing it'll be my LAST parent-teacher meeting, I found something quite interesting in the internet image search, check it out;

Whoever made this, is a genius!! It's time for brats to know we can just get rid of their asses if we were to know that they'd grow up to be brats. I know I would. But then again it'll cause so much stress on my womb, not to mention the multiple sex times I'd have and the pain I'd receive later on.

I'll just go to the hospital and ask for dead fetuses, simple as that. People nowadays only throw those dead fetuses in trashcans anyway, so it's practically worthless. I'll just gather them and do whatever this thing tells me to do.

Blood...pain..suffering..screaming, all those fuel me to the very core. It's insane how bloodthirsty I've become over the past few years, my mother has no control over my lust anymore. There are times when I want her blood just so I could feel satisfaction over it. But I know it won't be enough.

Once I have hers, I'll want dad's, then I want the babies' blood..

Blood...

The forbidden wine..

The sinful liquid

No more...

Go to hell and die you two pieces of useless fuckers.

You do not get into my life unless you have good business, and nosing around to find my exam result is just no business at all. You think just because you're my parents, I'll give and show you whatever you want me to give or show you? HAH! If I show you my tits, would you still want to look?

Those two insufferable fools I call my parents continues to make my life as miserable as hell. I'm not a genius, I have a lot of things on my mind, I have things from school AND not from school to do, give me a break man! As much as I want to excell in my life, you people nosing in isn't helping one bit.

Not to mentioned I lost two choir competitions thanks to those buffoons I call choir members. Stupid juniors just know how to fool around, doesn't take anything seriously for the entire half a year. I don't think I'll be able to join the third competition, die on your own. Tch...
The more I think of the competition, the more pissed I become, and more fuel's been added now that my parents are purposely digging their own graves in my hands.

No more...

No more...

All these times of being a little girl trying to please her parents; like a slave begging for a pinch of love from its master.

NO MORE.

No more will I continue to live like how I'm living now. No more of getting in touch with my child-self and feigning innocence when I did something wrong. No more of this insanity where my life is on the leash my parents set for me its length.

I'm gonna stand up on my own, I'm gonna face the world and the problems without flinching, I'm gonna show life that it can't control me. I live my own life, my soul belongs to me, I decide my future and no one from my family besides me will point where I should go.

If I ever got lost, I'll find my own way back, if I fall down and hurt myself, I'll just get back up and dust away the pain, if my life suddenly become pitch black, I'll create my own fire with whatever I have on me.

I'm not gonna depend on anyone, solely relying on myself only.

And those bitches/bastards who think they can order me around; whether it be my parents or not, I'm not gonna have an ounce of respect for them. Let them deal with the stupidity of their lives on their own.

Dowsing

Fuck it all..school will start tomorrow and I'm still in my holiday mood. I don't think I can sleep early and wake up early just to go to that hell hole. I seriously don't want to get my marks, which I know would be horrible because I never studied in the first place.

I told my mum I did study, huge ass lie that was. But meh, I couldn't give a fuck about it. Who'd want to study when there's shitload of homework to do? But then again I never did finish any of my homeworks, except english because the teacher is pure DEMON!
Good thing I'm one of her top students, the other students practically fear me now.

Anyways, like I said, I couldn't give a fuck about school. I just want to laze my ass at home and sleep until noon. Not to mention I have a crazy damn fucking stupid exam by the end of this year that I have to cram for. I really don't feel like it, it sucks shit more than my parents. The government is stupid, that's what it is.

By the way, last night I took the liberty to actually learn how to dowse. I calmed my mind, take out my necklace that has a teardrop crystal on it and start to swing it back and forth asking simple yes/no questions. After that, I froze my hand and let the crystal swing according to my question. I 'programmed' the crystal to continue swinging if it's a yes and slow down or stop if it's a no.

Surprisingly, that's just what it did. I ask some simple questions like 'is it Monday?', it slows down immediately. And then I asked if 12X12 is 144? The crystal continues to swing for quite some time. And then to experiment, I simply swing the crystal without calming my mind and without a question, the crystal swung for a short time, slows down and stops.

During my previous 'no' question, the crystal slows down IMMEDIATELY and during my 'yes' question, the crystal continues to swing like air friction is nothing to it. This just goes to show that I've started level 1 of my dowsing techniques.

My crystal necklace looks a bit like this only the opposite way since it's a teardrop shape;

Dowsing pendulum

I'm now gonna move to a higher level dowsing, to find someone or something on the map which requires more concentration. And then I'm gonna open my chakra points and improve my battle techniques, maybe even help me...cheat a little in exam.

They say once the aura nodes are open, ANYTHING is possible, so I'm gonna train myself. Finally, I'll be dowsing without a dowsing pendulum/crystal, I'll simply rely on my body to help me, there are some things I need to find and do after all..

Fuck it all

I'm telling you, parents nowadays are dumber than shits. Fucking retard who don't know anything about my life. Do you really think you can stop me from swearing just to 'make me a better person'? Hah! I laugh at their stupidity. I swear the moment I know the meaning of the words, which is back when I was 12-fucking-years-old!!

I fucking swear to live my fucking life which is so bull-shitty BORING. Nothing good ever comes to my life unless I swear. People would know not to mess with me because by swearing, I'll show them how badass I really am, not some damsel in distress who needs a fucking life.

Really, parents are dumber than fuck.
And how many times have I swear now?

Even I'm not entirely sure because I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!!

Hah! And my mum thought I only have one facebook account, how stupid is that? Bitch should know by now that I have a couple of accounts with, of course, different e-mails. Like phones, if we can't use one, we'll just use the other, simple as shit.

Swearing has gone viral, parents! Know it! Plus, I'm a seriously messed up girl. I like the feeling of blood on my hands, bloodlust coursing through my veins and the feeling of hatred and anger surrounding my soul. Once I'm on a rampage, all I'll be seeing is red, YOUR red.

I'm a dangerous psychopath sleeping inside the body of a 17-year-old girl. Once I'm awakened, not even my parents would be safe from me. I'll kill for fun, I'll kill for no reason, I'll kill for the sake of killing.

I'll kill to fuel my bloodlust.

And seeing how stupid and a huge motherfucker parents nowadays are, I'd say we teenagers have gone a level ahead of them bastards. They think they can keep us on a leash? Well, think again. We teenagers don't belong to anyone but ourselves.

No parents would be able to stop us from cursing and having sex like no tomorrow. But then again..I'm still a virgin. You guys have sex, I'm just gonna watch the show.

So let's show them bastards, bitches and motherfuckers how badass we are by throwing our shits in their stupid motherfucking faces.

Tch, parents.