School Stupidity

Yeah..sorry I haven't updated in a while, things got pretty nasty around here. From homework to games to studying, everything. And to top it off, they're all BULLSHIT!! There's only so much a girl can do before stress snaps her in half. And this girl, is at the point of breaking.

My math teacher is pushing me to do exercises I find stupid, how dare she tells me what I should do with my life and all those shits, I don't give no flying fuck! I know what I want to do with my life so don't you dare try and give me some fucking lectures. I ain't working that way. Just because her son is already an A+ genius, doesn't mean she can go around willy-nilly telling ME what to do. Geezuz..teacher nowadays.

And then there's additional maths which is just plain FUCKTARD. Maths, add maths, what's the diff?! They're still numbers and equations and all those moves, makes it no less maths in any way or form. Bio=chemistry=physics=add maths=MATHS, everything is the mother. Fucking. SAME. The only problem with add maths, is that it's long, tedious and just...dumb..I don't even have a swear for this anymore..

Chemistry, physics and bio..the teachers are all NUTS. I think after teaching my school's students for years, the neurones in their brains finally fried, leaving that trail of smoke coming out of their ears. Hell, even WE feel the pressure for our exams, but we still take it easy and steady.

I mean, look at me! I'm having my language paper in two days yet I can still play games and goofing off!
I'm not the genius or the smart type, I'm just the type who doesn't go to sleep at night if she wants to. That's right bitches! I stayed up until 5am practicing my add maths!! And still the motherfucker gave me a freaking 9/100!!

FUCK IT ALL!!!!

See what I mean? School, teachers, studying. Is there anything in life that's worth it for these three? I know our futures rely on exams and stuff..but come on! Malaysian educational system SUCKS big time! UPSR? PMR? SPM?! Are they seriously thinking that just by all those exams, we'd be successful in life?

I laugh at this.

*sigh* Might as well cram for that stupid language paper or else both my parents AND my teacher would go after my butt.

Sports and spells

*YAWN~~*

Man I'm beat...
Running around the field for a few laps sure hurts the thighs, not to mention the energy being used. And all these is because I'm getting ready for the school's Sports Day tomorrow. My handsome, charming, yet so stupid team leader signed my name for a 100m sprint, 4x100m and long jump.

Which is why I'm putting my time, and energy to do laps around the field and practicing for the long jump. Seriously, if it wasn't because it's my last year of highschool, I won't even bother doing all these stuff. I'd prefer to just stay at home and procrastinate by reading manga or writing my horror-themed fanfics or things like that.
Too bad I can't do those for the time being..what a pain.

And his twin brother, Adam, is almost as bad as he is, good thing he's much more tolerable. But really..those two can put off any artist/sportswoman when it comes to Sports Day. Why must I WADDLE LIKE A DUCK for the practice??

*sigh*...

The last time I checked, there is NO waddling while practicing, even the teacher was smiling like an idiot. Well, I got so mad knowing I was fooled, I went up to the twins and gave them a bone-shilling stare. They avoided me the whole day like I'm a curse-bringer.

Considering I have been learning black magic these past few days, I guess you can call me that.

A witch, a wizard, a demon, whatever.

All I know, is that I want to be just like this guy, maybe even get a mark like that on my hand, or some other part of my body. The mark of evil, a pentagram where the star is upside down..



Spells..especially forbidden spells are starting to interest me. Ever since I've used that pendulum, all I can think about is magic and its amazing uses. There's this someone I hate so badly, he took my best friend, who's this beautiful kind-hearted soul away from me.

AND THAT GUY IS A DRUNKARD!!

I don't know what my best friend see in him. He's a jerk and a selfish brat! Not to mention he only pretends to look good in front of her to make her fall for him. I can see he's done something to her and the rest of my friends.

Because I'm not affected by him or by his so-called easy going and funny attitude.

I've learnt some Japanese-styled seals and spells and guard myself, I think that's the whole reason his stupid looks and 'funny' personality doesn't get to me. In fact, it made my blood boil with uncontained rage. So now I'm learning some more Japanese black magic to seal around that boy's soul.

And probably not just Japanese-style magic, maybe some cult magic would do me good too, I want that boy to suffer for the rest of his life. My friends see them both together as cute, I find it repulsive. And to my dearest best friend...

I'm sorry...

I have to put a seal around your heart as well to make sure that you don't like that kind of boy for the rest of your life. You deserve a better guy than that piece of shit.

Blood

I just got back my results, well, my report card today and I am NOT a happy camper. C'mon...gimme a break, it's not like I'm gonna fail forever unless you useless old hags stop nagging me in order for me to do my job nicely. I may not be a doctor (yet) but I can also work in literature, I love english and I love writing, and you people are robbing that away from me.

Changing topic, that doesn't matter to me knowing it'll be my LAST parent-teacher meeting, I found something quite interesting in the internet image search, check it out;

Whoever made this, is a genius!! It's time for brats to know we can just get rid of their asses if we were to know that they'd grow up to be brats. I know I would. But then again it'll cause so much stress on my womb, not to mention the multiple sex times I'd have and the pain I'd receive later on.

I'll just go to the hospital and ask for dead fetuses, simple as that. People nowadays only throw those dead fetuses in trashcans anyway, so it's practically worthless. I'll just gather them and do whatever this thing tells me to do.

Blood...pain..suffering..screaming, all those fuel me to the very core. It's insane how bloodthirsty I've become over the past few years, my mother has no control over my lust anymore. There are times when I want her blood just so I could feel satisfaction over it. But I know it won't be enough.

Once I have hers, I'll want dad's, then I want the babies' blood..

Blood...

The forbidden wine..

The sinful liquid

No more...

Go to hell and die you two pieces of useless fuckers.

You do not get into my life unless you have good business, and nosing around to find my exam result is just no business at all. You think just because you're my parents, I'll give and show you whatever you want me to give or show you? HAH! If I show you my tits, would you still want to look?

Those two insufferable fools I call my parents continues to make my life as miserable as hell. I'm not a genius, I have a lot of things on my mind, I have things from school AND not from school to do, give me a break man! As much as I want to excell in my life, you people nosing in isn't helping one bit.

Not to mentioned I lost two choir competitions thanks to those buffoons I call choir members. Stupid juniors just know how to fool around, doesn't take anything seriously for the entire half a year. I don't think I'll be able to join the third competition, die on your own. Tch...
The more I think of the competition, the more pissed I become, and more fuel's been added now that my parents are purposely digging their own graves in my hands.

No more...

No more...

All these times of being a little girl trying to please her parents; like a slave begging for a pinch of love from its master.

NO MORE.

No more will I continue to live like how I'm living now. No more of getting in touch with my child-self and feigning innocence when I did something wrong. No more of this insanity where my life is on the leash my parents set for me its length.

I'm gonna stand up on my own, I'm gonna face the world and the problems without flinching, I'm gonna show life that it can't control me. I live my own life, my soul belongs to me, I decide my future and no one from my family besides me will point where I should go.

If I ever got lost, I'll find my own way back, if I fall down and hurt myself, I'll just get back up and dust away the pain, if my life suddenly become pitch black, I'll create my own fire with whatever I have on me.

I'm not gonna depend on anyone, solely relying on myself only.

And those bitches/bastards who think they can order me around; whether it be my parents or not, I'm not gonna have an ounce of respect for them. Let them deal with the stupidity of their lives on their own.

Dowsing

Fuck it all..school will start tomorrow and I'm still in my holiday mood. I don't think I can sleep early and wake up early just to go to that hell hole. I seriously don't want to get my marks, which I know would be horrible because I never studied in the first place.

I told my mum I did study, huge ass lie that was. But meh, I couldn't give a fuck about it. Who'd want to study when there's shitload of homework to do? But then again I never did finish any of my homeworks, except english because the teacher is pure DEMON!
Good thing I'm one of her top students, the other students practically fear me now.

Anyways, like I said, I couldn't give a fuck about school. I just want to laze my ass at home and sleep until noon. Not to mention I have a crazy damn fucking stupid exam by the end of this year that I have to cram for. I really don't feel like it, it sucks shit more than my parents. The government is stupid, that's what it is.

By the way, last night I took the liberty to actually learn how to dowse. I calmed my mind, take out my necklace that has a teardrop crystal on it and start to swing it back and forth asking simple yes/no questions. After that, I froze my hand and let the crystal swing according to my question. I 'programmed' the crystal to continue swinging if it's a yes and slow down or stop if it's a no.

Surprisingly, that's just what it did. I ask some simple questions like 'is it Monday?', it slows down immediately. And then I asked if 12X12 is 144? The crystal continues to swing for quite some time. And then to experiment, I simply swing the crystal without calming my mind and without a question, the crystal swung for a short time, slows down and stops.

During my previous 'no' question, the crystal slows down IMMEDIATELY and during my 'yes' question, the crystal continues to swing like air friction is nothing to it. This just goes to show that I've started level 1 of my dowsing techniques.

My crystal necklace looks a bit like this only the opposite way since it's a teardrop shape;

Dowsing pendulum

I'm now gonna move to a higher level dowsing, to find someone or something on the map which requires more concentration. And then I'm gonna open my chakra points and improve my battle techniques, maybe even help me...cheat a little in exam.

They say once the aura nodes are open, ANYTHING is possible, so I'm gonna train myself. Finally, I'll be dowsing without a dowsing pendulum/crystal, I'll simply rely on my body to help me, there are some things I need to find and do after all..

Fuck it all

I'm telling you, parents nowadays are dumber than shits. Fucking retard who don't know anything about my life. Do you really think you can stop me from swearing just to 'make me a better person'? Hah! I laugh at their stupidity. I swear the moment I know the meaning of the words, which is back when I was 12-fucking-years-old!!

I fucking swear to live my fucking life which is so bull-shitty BORING. Nothing good ever comes to my life unless I swear. People would know not to mess with me because by swearing, I'll show them how badass I really am, not some damsel in distress who needs a fucking life.

Really, parents are dumber than fuck.
And how many times have I swear now?

Even I'm not entirely sure because I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!!

Hah! And my mum thought I only have one facebook account, how stupid is that? Bitch should know by now that I have a couple of accounts with, of course, different e-mails. Like phones, if we can't use one, we'll just use the other, simple as shit.

Swearing has gone viral, parents! Know it! Plus, I'm a seriously messed up girl. I like the feeling of blood on my hands, bloodlust coursing through my veins and the feeling of hatred and anger surrounding my soul. Once I'm on a rampage, all I'll be seeing is red, YOUR red.

I'm a dangerous psychopath sleeping inside the body of a 17-year-old girl. Once I'm awakened, not even my parents would be safe from me. I'll kill for fun, I'll kill for no reason, I'll kill for the sake of killing.

I'll kill to fuel my bloodlust.

And seeing how stupid and a huge motherfucker parents nowadays are, I'd say we teenagers have gone a level ahead of them bastards. They think they can keep us on a leash? Well, think again. We teenagers don't belong to anyone but ourselves.

No parents would be able to stop us from cursing and having sex like no tomorrow. But then again..I'm still a virgin. You guys have sex, I'm just gonna watch the show.

So let's show them bastards, bitches and motherfuckers how badass we are by throwing our shits in their stupid motherfucking faces.

Tch, parents.

Kurapika

Hah, and I'm gonna post something really useless now unless you're a fan of hunter X hunter. This is regarding my favourite character whom I've been going insane over.
Not so much as a crush or whatever crap like that, but more like I'm fangirling over him.

His name's Kurapika, the Chain Conjurer. His entire clan's been killed by the Phantom Troupe when he was 12, now at the age of 17, he joined the Hunter Exam to get his revenge on the Troupe, aka Spiders. The whole reason for his clan's massacre is because their eyes turn a beautiful covetted scarlet red when angered and stays that way when they die.

Truth be told, he's one level-headed, calm and vastly knowledgeable 17-year-old, kinda makes me feel rather insignificant with him. Sad.. Anyways, he's deadly when provoked and could kill the strongest Spider member single-handedly, all thanks to the chains he conjured up with his aura. This is even more enchanced when his eyes turn scarlet to which he enters a period called Emperor Time. His accuracy and force would be doubled and he'll be even more determined than ever.

There are five set of chains on each of his finger, but the one on his index finger is unknown as to what it does because they never showed it. Feh...

The thumb holds the Holy Chain; Healing Thumb where he could he serious injuries in just a few short seconds.

Holy Chain (Healing Thumb)

Since we don't know what's the use of the chain on his index finger nor what it looks like, we can skip that to the middle finger.
Chain Jail; The Restraining Middle Finger.
This is the most powerful offense chain Kurapika's ever conjured. Once this chain binds on to you, the only way to break free is through brute force and it seals your aura points, making you completely at his mercy. Kurapika set some rules in order to use Chain Jail, that is ONLY to use on the Spider members. If he violates this rule, he'll die instantly.

Chain Jail (The Restraining Middle Finger)

Next up is the Dowsing Chain; The Guiding Ring Finger.
He uses this under normal circumstances, for defensive and offensive purpose. Also useful to investigate activities, like finding a missing individual or see if anyone's lying. The small ball at the end of the chain moves in the direction of whatever he's dowsing for, hence the name.

Dowsing Chain (The Guiding Ring Finger)

And finally we have the Judgement Chain; The Arbiter Little Finger (aka Stake of Retribution).
It has a blade at the end of the chain, enters the victim's body and wraps itself around the heart. Kurapika sets two conditions for this and if either are violated, the blade pierces the heart. Kurapika even have the chain wrapped around his heart which he uses to set the conditions for his Chain Jail ability. It can only be used when Kurapika's eyes turn scarlet.

Judgement Chain (The Arbiter Little Finger/

Stake of Retribution)

You know, for a very beautiful guy, he sure knows how to be violent. Makes me wish he's on my side so we both could avenge whatever we're avenging for. I have people to kill for taking my freedom, he have people to kill for taking his clan. I'm just bloodthirsty by nature.

Nothing wrong with that is there....?

And now it's time for Kurapika spam picture. I don't know why I'm like this today, so hyper.. Maybe it's because of dinner I had last night, who knows. That, or my demon pet isn't here today, she's off to feed blood somewhere leaving me vulnerable here. Che...

This is a guy, and he's

this beautiful wtf..?

I got this off the manga

Before you say anything, I got this

off of devArt so I didn't write that.

WHAT?! Don't give me that look.

He's beautiful, end of story.

This is the cover for the Hunter x Hunter

collection song

This is the picture of the Hunter x Hunter

collection 2 song cover

Yes, I gawked when I saw him

dressed up like this.

Kinky..hehe

So I found this VERY talented artist in devArt who drew a doodle of Kurapika being a busy housewife, Leorio as the husband and Killua and Gon being the kids. It looks SO much like the anime, I worshipped the artist. But I'm sure with a few practices, I can be as good as whoever the artist is.

If you can't see it, click it.

A gif on how to read Kurapika's name

in the Hunter x Hunter world.



God that's a long post...

I'm merely procrastinating anyway, no way am I reading books during my holiday. I just want to relax before school starts again.